On April 21, Scarface will publish Diary of a Madman: The Geto Boys, Life, Death, and the Roots of Southern Rap with Benjamin Meadows-Ingram. It is essentially an autobiography, one we’re dying to read, and in a brand new excerpt from the book, ‘Face talks about one of the darkest moments in his life: the day he tried to commit suicide.
“Looking back, I think I just wanted the attention,” he says of his multiple attempts to take his own life. “Slitting my wrists with a box cutter and bleeding out all over the bathroom floor, putting loaded guns to my head, all of that shit. If you’d asked me then, I’d have told you straight up: I was ready to go. But I never did it. I never cut myself deep enough or far enough away from my family to be left alone to die. I never pulled the trigger. I never went all the way. That’s why I say that I think I really just wanted the attention. If you really want to go, dying is the easy part. It’s the living that’s hard. That shit takes a lifetime. And it will test you every step of the way.”
Read the full, chilling excerpt right here.